Kim Kardashian Admits She Kept Her Pregnancy A Secret From Her Family For This Heartbreaking Reason

By Laura Rizzo
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The 10-year anniversary special of Keeping Up With The Kardashians had all the emotions. They focused a lot on happy moments and the signature Kardashian group hug, but there was also never-before-scene clips that included a few sad moments. One of the more emotional topics was Kim Kardashian's pregnancy secret.

As it turns out, when Kim was pregnant with her first child, North West, it wasn't all smooth sailing. First of all, the news that she was pregnant was shocking and unexpected. She revealed that she and Kanye weren't trying to get pregnant — it was a surprise to both of them.

Khloé and I went to a fertility doctor and they said they thought it would be really hard for me. I was about to freeze my eggs and I randomly got pregnant. I remember calling [Kanye] and he thought a family member of mine had died I was so hysterical. I thought my life was over that I was pregnant, it was so hard for me.

Kim also added with a smile,

Obviously, it's the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I mean, obviously. Have you seen her kids? They are seriously the cutest.

The biggest bombshell was dropped when Kim divulged that she thought she miscarried. You could tell it was still difficult to talk about. She said,

Because it was just a few weeks in and I was so scared and I was having so much pain. I mean, at one point, I thought I had a miscarriage… I was like pretty certain about it. I didn't know myself, like what was going on, and so I flew all the way home on Thanksgiving.

A clip was shown of Kim in a hotel room experiencing back and stomach pain to the point of tears. She continued,

The doctor told me, 'If there's no heartbeat, you had a miscarriage. Let's get through it, come in after Thanksgiving dinner. It will be private, no one will be in here.' I went in that morning and he's like 'There's a heartbeat, you didn't have a miscarriage.' I'm like, 'Oh my God, this is a sign.' I mean, it was such an emotional Thanksgiving and Kourtney was the only one who knew about it, her and Kanye, because we were in Miami living together and I was like 'I got to get home.'

If you have followed either of Kim's pregnancies, she had a very difficult time with both North and Saint.

In 2015, six weeks shy of her due date with Saint, Kim told E! News,

I'm really not complaining, I'm just being honest and being honest about [it]. I hate it. You know pregnancy is not for me … You know I've heard stories forever about how amazing pregnancy is from my mom and Kourtney and that's just not the case for me and I'm not going to sit here and lie and act like it's the most blissful experience. It's awful.

Kim openly dealt with health issues during both her pregnancies. She continued,

Every medical issue that you could probably have I feel like I get and I worry so much about it. This pregnancy I have a little bit more anxiety just because I know what's to come and it's really inevitable some of the issues that I'm going to have. You know, I have a high-risk delivery and all of that gives me such anxiety. I think that I'm really hopeful and you know I manage it really well, but when I write blog posts and stuff like that about how I think it's just such a miserable experience. I mean that's my experience and I'm not gonna pretend that it's not … My huge swollen feet I don't find fun and attractive. And I get I'm so blessed to be carrying a child again when I didn't think that was possible for me. I do have access to amazing doctors that have been so helpful so I'm hopeful that everything will work out and be fine.

Kim Kardashian sharing her pregnancy struggles must've been very difficult, but I'm sure women everywhere related on some level. Glad everything turned out OK. Love you, Kimmy!

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