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Aly Raisman's Statement To Larry Nassar Is Heartbreaking & So Powerful

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On Thursday, Dec. 7, former gymnastics doctor Larry Nassar was sentenced to 60 years in federal prison on charges of child pornography. Following this sentencing, Olympic gymnast Aly Raisman released her statement to Nassar. In early November, Raisman said she had been abused by Nassar, starting when she was 15 years old and training. Nassar had been a doctor for USA Gymnastics from the late 1990s until 2015, after allegations of sexual abuse were made known to the organization.

Raisman had initially planned to read her letter to Nassar in person during his sentencing hearing, she wrote for The Players' Tribune. Instead, however, the court moved forward without allowing her to do so. After the sentence was announced on Thursday, Raisman published her letter in full on The Players' Tribune. Her letter begins by stating,

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She went on to write that the "effects of his actions are far-reaching, since abuse goes way beyond the moment, often haunting survivors for the rest of their lives, making it difficult for them to trust others, and impacting their relationships." Her letter, which switches perspective to directly address Nassar, goes on to detail the ways in which his abuse impacted her. Raisman wrote that her relationships with her family and friends changed because of Nassar and that her mental health suffered under the trauma. Her physical health suffered, too, after she had a bad reaction to anxiety medication that landed her in the hospital.

Nassar was sentenced on charges of child pornography and has also pleaded guilty to seven counts of first-degree criminal conduct. More than 130 women and girls accused Nassar of sexual abuse committed while he was supposed to be training them as athletes. His accusers include several Olympians — including Raisman, McKayla Maroney, Gabby Douglas, and Jamie Dantzscher. Nassar has admitted to sexually abusing underage girls, according to CNN.

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In her letter, Raisman says that Nassar made her trust that he had her best interests at heart, "but you lied to me." She writes that she has "a hard time trusting other people," especially doctors. Raisman wrote that she "avoided certain treatments that gymnasts rely upon, especially during intense Olympic training," such as regular massages, because she was "too afraid."

Raisman also wrote frankly about the trauma of Nassar's abuse, including that she "became almost numb to my feelings" to get through the stress of the Olympics. After that process, she let the feelings in. She wrote,

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Although Raisman is "trying now to take back my control," she still has triggers to her anxiety and trauma, especially when she travels.

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Additionally, Raisman wrote to Nassar, her relationships with her family and friends were forever changed. She has spent considerable time addressing the abuse with her parents, but it's a painful process. These discussions have also impacted her younger sisters, who are in high school. "Abuse impacts the whole family," Raisman wrote. She added that one of her best friends was "also a victim of Larry — or a survivor, as I prefer to say," and their relationship has been hurt because of the shared abuse. Raisman wrote,

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Ultimately in her letter, Raisman turns attention back to the ways in which the system failed these dozens of young women and girls. Over the past few months, the Olympian has regularly pointed towards USA Gymnastics and their failure to prevent Nassar's abuse. She claimed in the letter that survivors came forward, but the institution "protected this monster." USA Gymnastics said in a statement to 60 Minutes last month that they are "very sorry that any athlete has been harmed" and that they are making policy changes to prevent potential future abuse.

Raisman wrote in her letter,

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Raisman concluded her letter by calling for "the strongest possible sentence" for Nassar (as this letter was supposed to be read during his sentencing hearing) and by stating that she hopes sharing her story "can help other survivors feel less alone, less isolated, and encourage them to speak up and to get help."

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