My mom is going to kill me.
For any goody-two-shoes's (GTS) out there, you all know the struggle.
We're usually known for doing the right thing, all the time.
As a result, we can't enjoy certain things; we get teased — even dissed.
But, there are moments when we think we can fix it all, just by doing something that is not expected.
Like getting a tattoo.
Yes, we may all think we'll become an official rebel after such an action, but having first-hand experience of this (sorry, Mom), especially as a goody-two-shoes, only slams our faces with five hard truths we've been trying to avoid all the while:
1. It hurts (but that's really for everybody).
Okay, people, let's get straight to it: As a GTS, you've never ever really done anything serious enough to hurt or leave a mark, so this is an extreme.
And, tattoos hurt like heck. The best way to describe it would be all the needles in the world coming together to scrape on whatever part of your body you want.
They just drag themselves across your skin, and you sit there in a chair, thinking to yourself, "Wow.
This must be how the beginning of a seizure feels like."
2. It's a constant reminder you still can't change who you are (at the worst times possible).
Even though you now have a tattoo, people still won't find you intimidating. It sucks, but it's true, especially if they can't see the tattoo in plain sight.
When I officially got a tattoo, I thought, "I'm going to be considered hard now! Now no one will be telling me I'm cute. No one will push me around anymore."
Look, if you didn’t do it then, you still won't smoke, drink, cuss, blah, blah, blah (insert anything else "bad" here) after getting inked.
And, people will still take full advantage of it. Tattoo confidence will only get you so far; you can't change your ethics.
3. You'll feel like you're hiding a flaw.
You may not have changed, but physically, you have. And, that matters your parents — if they ever find out.
You want to tell your parents so badly, but you also sort of kind of don't want to die.
As goody-two-shoes's, we've all heard the, “You're-not-getting-a-tattoo-as long-as-I-live,” nonsense from family members.
And, you still want to be looked at as that perfect individual.
As a result, it really sucks around the holidays. Oh, what fun it is on Christmas day to hear your cousin ramble on about how painful tattoos are.
Meanwhile, all you can do is sit and stare at the floor, hoping your mother doesn't notice you're avoiding eye contact that (if matched) will surely push you to tell on yourself.
4. You'll struggle to accept that some risks you take are permanent.
There will be days when you look at that (possibly cartoonish (you didn’t know any better, it was your first one)) tattoo and think to yourself, "OH MY GOSH THIS IS NEVER COMING OFF WHAT HAVE I DONE."
I’m not saying all the time, but every now and then, you’ll think it.
5. You realize people will stop seeing you as perfect.
Well, eventually your parents will find out. Perhaps you got popped upside the head, or perhaps your folks didn’t talk to you for a week.
Whatever the case, it sucks. People, in general, are supposed to accept you for who you are, but there will be times when things you do cause others to cock their heads to their sides.
It’s the ones who stay regardless who are most important.
Do these effects of getting a tattoo as a GTS sound familiar? Yeah, they sound like life.
And sometimes, life just sucks. There are things in the world that aim to hurt you.
You feel like you constantly need to put on a face, but you can't change who you are. You make mistakes, and you second-guess yourself.
Some people won't accept your choices, and you may struggle with knowing everyone knows you aren’t perfect.
But just know one thing: Getting in the chair, regardless of the possible risks, is at least proof that no matter what crappy things may happen, you are ready to face them.
Welcome to kicking adulthood in the butt.