J Law Is Only Angry At Herself For Making Less Money Than Male Actors

Jennifer Lawrence isn't blaming men for her pay gap, and she isn't blaming Sony, either.

Instead, the Academy Award winner claims she is angry with herself.

In a new piece for Tuesday's Lenny Letter, a feminist newsletter created by Lena Dunham and Jennifer Konner of HBO's “Girls,” Lawrence admits while her income inequities are not “relatable” to the everyday woman, her response can be the same.

She writes,

When the Sony hack happened and I found out how much less I was being paid than the lucky people with dicks, I didn't get mad at Sony. I got mad at myself. I failed as a negotiator because I gave up early. I didn't want to keep fighting over millions of dollars that, frankly, due to two franchises, I don't need. (I told you it wasn't relatable, don't hate me).

The “Hunger Games” actress insists her fear of seeming “spoiled” or “difficult” dissuaded her for negotiating pay comparable to her male counterparts.

She continues,

At the time, that seemed like a fine idea, until I saw the payroll on the Internet and realized every man I was working with definitely didn't worry about being 'difficult' or 'spoiled.'… Are we socially conditioned to behave this way?…Could there still be a lingering habit of trying to express our opinions in a certain way that doesn't 'offend' or 'scare' men?

Lawrence vows to speak for herself without worrying how her words are being construed though the lens of gender bias, reminding readers,

I don't think I've ever worked for a man in charge who spent time contemplating what angle he should use to have his voice heard. It's just heard. Jeremy Renner, Christian Bale, and Bradley Cooper all fought and succeeded in negotiating powerful deals for themselves. If anything, I'm sure they were commended for being fierce and tactical.

If what she writes is true, and the Jennifer Lawrence we have known up to this point was holding back, I cannot wait to see her in all of her direct, unapologetic glory.

Citations: Jennifer Lawrence Blames Herself for Earning Less Than Male Actors (TIME), Why Do I Make Less Than My Male Co‑Stars? (Lenny Letter)