Caitlyn Jenner Reveals How She Overcame 'Biggest Fear' At The ESPYs

by Eitan Levine

Caitlyn Jenner should be all of our spirit animals.

If you were wondering where Caitlyn Jenner got the confidence to deliver her flawless speech after receiving the Arthur Ashe Courage Award at the ESPYs, you should probably read her latest blog post.

“How I Conquered My Biggest Fear At the ESPYs” is a pretty self-explanatory walkthrough of everything from getting her dress made up, to receiving the award itself, to watching the speech on TV at home after partying with her family.

Diane Sawyer was in attendance that night, which was special for Jenner as Sawyer's interview with her acted as the former Olympian's "coming out party" as Caitlyn.

Jenner spoke of Sawyer in the post. She wrote,

I never really saw anybody until the point with Diane Sawyer. That was tough because she has been so wonderful in this whole process. It wasn't just an interview that we did. It changed my life. It started this whole process on such a positive note. I owe so much to her.

Abby Wambach, the US women's national soccer team player who married her girlfriend in 2013, had the fitting honor of introducing Caitlyn at the ESPYs.

Jenner said the moment she was getting up on stage was nerve-racking, but it was one of the highlights of the night. She continued,

Of course I was nervous about tripping as I walked up to the stage! That gown was long and tough. Abby Wambach actually helped me up to make sure I didn't trip. She did a great job with the introduction and I want to thank her for doing that. She was so excited. I told her beforehand, 'Abby, we have to have this picture of the two of us up there on stage — you in a tux and me in a Versace gown. THAT is the picture of the ESPYs right there.' When I came up on stage, we stood there, held hands, and took a little bow. It was fun. It kind of lightened things up a bit.

Jenner also wrote about potential issues with actually reading off a teleprompter, as she identified as dyslexic as a kid. She said,

As a dyslexic kid, my biggest fear in life was to go in front of the class and read because I just wasn't very good at it — and that stays with you through your whole life. That's why all of my speaking engagements through the years have been always off the cuff. I'm better off getting up there knowing what I'm going to say and doing it. But at the ESPYs, I really had to stick to the prompter because I only had a certain number of minutes to make it right, to get my points across. I practiced, and practiced, and practiced, and practiced to make sure I'd nail it. There's a great line that I heard a long time ago: 'Success is not measured by heights attained but by obstacles overcome.' For me to go out in front of a group like that and to do the whole thing off of the teleprompter was huge.

She finished the post by thanking the ESPYs and her fans.

She also made sure to restate her mission on helping people with gender identity issues, writing,

There is so much misunderstanding of this community that I'm in. People don't understand trans issues or gender identity issues. Now I'm in a position to try to explain it to people, to try to get them to understand that these are serious issues that affect a lot of people. That's what my mission has been from the beginning and I hope that I achieved that at the ESPYs. What an honor.

Everyone should just start accepting Caitlyn Jenner as his or her personal lord and savior.

Citations: How I Conquered My Biggest Fear At the ESPYs (Caitlyn Jenner)