Hi Rosebud, After living a fairly mental health drama-free life, this past year I was hit with a chronic anxiety like WHOA. Was this written in the stars for this time in my life? My birthdate is May 19th, 1989. Sincerely, Anxious Taurus
Dear Anxious Taurus,
Let me start from the beginning.
When you were born on May 19, 1989, the planet Saturn was positioned in Capricorn.
In astrology, Saturn is a planet that symbolizes restriction, growth, tough lessons, the death of old patterns and the rebuilding of new ones.
It is an extremely slow-moving outer planet, and it's almost back in the position it was when you were born, which means that at 27 years old, you (and everyone else your age) is about to enter their first Saturn Return.
What is your Saturn Return, you might ask?
Well, it's basically a spiritual root canal. It's a long, arduous period of time when we are forced to dig deep down into our souls and remove whatever toxicity resides there.
While Saturn won't officially be in Capricorn again until December of 2017, the choices you make (and the events thrust upon you) around the age of 26 to 27 will give you a glimpse into the feelings you'll be facing head-on during the Saturn Return.
Sounds horrible, right? Well, it's not all bad.
The truth is, your Saturn Return is meant to usher you into a new phase of your life, like when "adulting" transitions into a real thing called adulthood.
According to The Saturn Sisters,
If everything feels like chaos, if your relationships are breaking down and you're questioning your career, your friendships, your sanity, and your very life, it is likely that it's just the ripples of your Saturn Return descending.
So, that horrible anxiety you're feeling? It's normal.
Although, I would still encourage seeing a therapist if you're suffering.
In fact, I would encourage everyone going through their Saturn Return to enter therapy. It's the perfect time to start asking the questions that help you discover who you truly are.
While it might feel like you're going through a spiritual, two-year long contraction, those contractions will be followed by the birth of your new self.
And trust me, it will be a fucking delight to meet them, whoever they are.
Now, let's get more personal about it. Since your Saturn Return is in the sign of Capricorn, you can expect a test of your humility and the use of power.
Your ambition, foresight and organizational ability have undoubtedly been of great benefit to you, but you will most likely need to learn how to let power flow through you without trying to impose your will on others or by seeking to dominate people, places or things.
Rather than try to be a dictator (even of your own emotions), you may need to learn to make yourself an instrument of the power you have within.
Since Capricorn is a sign that is symbolized by the father, there may be issues surrounding your relationship to either your own father or the paternal figures or authorities in your life.
Your intimate relationships with men will also be tested if there are issues that have been avoided.
Overall, by the time you come out of this Saturn Return, you'll be a force to be reckoned with. The paradox is, you'll be learning how powerful you are through letting go.
Face things head-on and be brave, Taurus.
Happy Saturn Return!