Michelle Rodriguez Says She Was Really 'Jealous' Of Paul Walker's Death

Michelle Rodriguez opened up about the grief she experienced after the death of her co-star Paul Walker in 2013.

The actress was recently interviewed about her experience after reportedly taking ayahuasca, a psychedelic drug. In a clip posted by TMZ, she shared her feelings about Walker's death. She said,

When I lost Paul, I went through a year of just being like an animal, like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we just come here and can disappear at any moment... How could I get my mind off that?

The actress also opened up about how she went "crazy" after her co-star's death and had several regrets about it. She explained,

I did everything I could possibly do to hide from myself, and I'll tell you that my ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here... It wasn't a sadness that he's gone, it was more like a jealousy that he's there first.

The full interview will be part of a new documentary, "The Reality of Truth" by Michael Zapolin. You can watch the trailer below.

Citations: Michelle Rodriguez Jealous of Paul Walker's Death (PEOPLE), Michelle Rodriguez Interview About Paul Walker's Death (TMZ)