I just want to start off by saying I'm not upset with you. I love you too much to ever be mad at you or hate you. If I had to choose a word to describe how I feel about you, "disappointed" is the first word that comes to mind.
You were everything I ever wanted. Truthfully, you still are. I've never met anyone like you, and I'm scared I never will. You showed me how I truly deserve to be treated. This is something no one has ever done for me before. In my eyes, you will always be an incredible man.
For many reasons, you decided to give up on me. You gave up on us. I understand why, and I completely respect your decision.
The fact is, it wasn't the right time for you. Distance stood between us. But despite it all, I was willing to fight for you. It breaks my heart to know that you weren't.
We would have been perfect together. I could see us building a life full of happiness and love with one another. Judging by the things you said to me, I know you did, too.
Maybe we just have different personalities. But I've always been one to fight for the things I want in this world. If I can't have them, I'll try even harder.
Yes, love, I understand it wasn't going to be easy. It would have been a long, messy and hard process. But don't you think that would have made it all the more worth it?
How amazing would it have been to know you fought for a love that you knew you deserved? Think of how amazing it would have felt to look back and see that you did everything you could have done.
To go through something like that together would have created a love neither of us has ever experienced before. We would have been the luckiest people in the world.
But you didn't fight. You gave up too easily. You knew the path was going to be hard, so you backed out before you even bothered to try. Even though I could never hate you, honestly, a part of me secretly does.
I guess I expected more from you. You seemed like the type of person who fought for the things he wanted in this world.
I realize you were doing what was best for you. I hope you've found contentment through your decision. That is all I ever wanted for you.
I want you to be happy. I want you to have everything you desire in this life because you deserve so much.
I'm not writing this as a way to get you back. I've accepted the fact that you're gone. I've come to terms with it.
Quite honestly, I'm not even sure I want to be with you anymore. If you were so quick to give up on us once, I'm sure you would do it again.
Usually, I'm all for second chances. But I have no energy left to get my heart broken once again.
I guess I just need you to know how I feel so that I can ultimately move on and find happiness for myself. I need to let you go, so that I can find the one who actually wants to fight for me.
I love you so much, and I hope for nothing but the best for you. Maybe one day, we will be able to meet again and give this whole thing another try.
But for now, goodbye, my love. I'll be missing you.
The one you let get away